Ever wonder if you made the right choice? Or if you had done something just a little different, how your life would be different today? Well, that seems to be all thats on my mind today.
I'm wondering at the choices of some of my friends in the past, who were good friends at the time, but now... now they don't even seem to want to talk to me. Ever. Nothing is more frustrating than that. All I want is to have friends who actually care about me and actually want to talk to me and hang out with me, but that never seems the case anymore, and its really bumming me out.
There are a few friends in particular, who will remain nameless, who I thought would be better than this, but that is not the case. I try to talk to them and they try to end the conversation as fast as they can. They don't even want to talk it seems.
Add that to the fact that a few days ago the guys from back in Eldridge came out for a concert and said they were going to hang out with me, but then didn't, and you may be able to understand whats going on. They said they were going to leave early so we could get dinner or something, and they ended up leaving for a 4 hour drive exactly 4 hours before the concert started, so they said we could hang out after, well, they didn't get out of the concert till almost midnight, and I was already asleep.
Now on to something a little more odd, my dreams. I've been having a lot of really odd dreams lately, be it from me being an assassin hunting my prey, to fulfilling a promise I made so many years ago to a (then) close friend. Sometimes you have to wonder... are dreams really just dreams, or are they glimpses into the past life, or into the future. Or are they glimpses into an alternate reality? I don't know, and I probably never will. One thing I know for sure though is this: I'm still alive and kicking, and I have no intention of giving that up anytime soon, no matter how bad life gets.
