Run.

Don't look back, keep moving forward.  Just run.  Run until you can't anymore.  Run until your feet are sore.  Run until you cant breathe and your legs are burning, and then run some more.


Sometimes in life it feels like we are always running.  Running from ourselves, our past, our mistakes, and sometimes even our successes.  Sometimes we run for pleasure, others for necessity, and still others for fear.


I've been doing a lot of running lately.


I've been running from my past, my mistakes, and even my future.


6 years ago, I thought I had my life figured out.  Oh the teenage mind, always thinking it knows everything.  How wrong I was.


In the matter of the past 6 years, I have moved twice, lost a lot of old friends, made a few new friends, regained contact with an old friend, started college, changed majors 4 times, had 4 girlfriends (5 if you count the one that wasn't technically a relationship), gotten married, quit Subway (my place of employment for 4 years) and started working at Sam's club (my new hell) and in the next 6 months, I will be moving again.


There has been a lot of movement in my life, a lot of running.  It seems I can't put the past behind me and let it stay there.  I can't tell if its because it's not supposed to stay there, or my subconscious doesn't want it to stay there.  The past keeps rearing it's ugly head, and instead of facing it dead on, I run.


When life in the present hits me in the face with something I can't deal with at the moment, I don't try to find a way to deal with it, I run.


When it comes time to plan for the future, lay down the ground work for my path to success, I am finding myself unable to concentrate on the task, so I run.


Running helps me calm my nerves, collect my thoughts, and figure out what to do.  But it doesn't help me actually DO anything.


Sometimes, I wish that life were so simple that all I had to do was run, and nothing would ever bother me.

"Run little one, run from the boogyman, run from your fears.  Just keep moving and open your ears, your eyes, every single sense at once.  Just keep running from the man in the night.


Don't look back, keep moving forward.  Just run.  Run until you can't anymore.  Run until your feet are sore.  Run until you cant breathe and your legs are burning, and then run some more. 


Run young man, keep on moving, don't let them get you down.  Just keep up the faith, you're proving you've got what it takes, keep moving don't let them drag you down.


Don't look back, keep moving forward.  Just run.  Run until you can't anymore.  Run until your feet are sore.  Run until you cant breathe and your legs are burning, and then run some more. 


Run old man, gotta run from your pain.  Made some mistakes, and now its time for you to pay.  Keep running from the pain and maybe one day, you'll be free from the injustice brought upon this place.


Don't look back, keep moving forward.  Just run.  Run until you can't anymore.  Run until your feet are sore.  Run until you cant breathe and your legs are burning, and then run some more. 


Just run."

Marriage

So, Kelsea and I are now married, and in the past 6 days since we got married, so many people have asked me how it feels to be married, and honestly?  It doesn't feel any different.  The only way our wedding day could have been any better is if her Grandpa were there, and my oldest friend were there.  Sadly, her grandpa passed a few years ago, and my friend is on the other side of the country, so there's that.

Gotta get back to killing reapers now though, will post more later (hopefully)