So, listening to some music lately that has really made me think: Christians today are fucked.
Before you start to crucify me, let me explain.
You see, there are some Christians who say that the Bible is law, and 100% truth. if thats so, then why is it that its written by man, edited by man, printed by man, etc. You see, if the "Word of God" is 100% truth, then none of it should ever have been cut out.
Also, i dont consider the "Praise Jesus! He is everything to me, He's my boyfriend, He is my whole world! Anyone who doesnt believe the same thing as I do is going to HELL!" people to be real people, but rather, machines, sent here to convert or destroy us, kinda like the terminator.
Thats all for now, I have more I want to write about this, but I dont have enough time atm
Thursday, March 3, 2011
Sunday, February 27, 2011
Life
Right now, its at a low point. nothing seems to be going right, I feel like I have no friends worth anything, cuz even when I do manage to talk to someone, its only for a few seconds, then they just stop responding.
I feel like I have no future, no hope.
There are two people I want to see right now more than anyone else in the world, and odds are, neither of them know it... well, one of them might, but the other one, I'm not even sure the other person still exists. Hell, I'm not sure if either of the people I want to see still exist, seeing as how people change over time.
Going to Des Moines on the 22nd, going to see the old crew from Grand View... we'll see if I still feel like I belong there or not.
I may post more later.
I feel like I have no future, no hope.
There are two people I want to see right now more than anyone else in the world, and odds are, neither of them know it... well, one of them might, but the other one, I'm not even sure the other person still exists. Hell, I'm not sure if either of the people I want to see still exist, seeing as how people change over time.
Going to Des Moines on the 22nd, going to see the old crew from Grand View... we'll see if I still feel like I belong there or not.
I may post more later.
Sunday, January 9, 2011
silence is golden... or not
so, starting out this post, I realize its been forever since my last update. I also dont even have a title for this one yet, but it will come, they always do.
I've been feeling kinda down as of late, for reasons unknown to me, but I'm getting tired of it, yet, nothing seems to help me much. part of me thinks its the fact that all my friends are now internet friends only, as I only have a couple people I still consider in real life friends, and they are all at least 4 hours away, if not more.
add to that the fact I havent heard from a few of my "friends" who I thought would always be there for me, despite everything put in our way, yeah, I'm not in good spirits.
sometimes I wonder, if I've made the right decisions the past few months since I left Grand View, but then, I realize, that if I hadn't I would probably be worse off than I am now...
I think everything would just be better if I could have seen that one person I really wanted to see over break, but it didnt happen, and I probably wont get a chance for another year at least.
(first part of a set of lyrics I'm working on)
Sitting in the dark I cant forget
Sitting all alone where time will never hit
I call your name into the night
All thats returned is the night's music.
The end is near
ready your fear
your swords,
your shields
the end is drawing near.
You're nothing but a ghost
Something from the past at the very most
Be brave and you may triumph
Lose hope and you will surely fall.
The end is near
ready your fear
your swords,
your shields
the end is drawing near.
Ill post more later.
I've been feeling kinda down as of late, for reasons unknown to me, but I'm getting tired of it, yet, nothing seems to help me much. part of me thinks its the fact that all my friends are now internet friends only, as I only have a couple people I still consider in real life friends, and they are all at least 4 hours away, if not more.
add to that the fact I havent heard from a few of my "friends" who I thought would always be there for me, despite everything put in our way, yeah, I'm not in good spirits.
sometimes I wonder, if I've made the right decisions the past few months since I left Grand View, but then, I realize, that if I hadn't I would probably be worse off than I am now...
I think everything would just be better if I could have seen that one person I really wanted to see over break, but it didnt happen, and I probably wont get a chance for another year at least.
(first part of a set of lyrics I'm working on)
Sitting in the dark I cant forget
Sitting all alone where time will never hit
I call your name into the night
All thats returned is the night's music.
The end is near
ready your fear
your swords,
your shields
the end is drawing near.
You're nothing but a ghost
Something from the past at the very most
Be brave and you may triumph
Lose hope and you will surely fall.
The end is near
ready your fear
your swords,
your shields
the end is drawing near.
Ill post more later.
Wednesday, November 24, 2010
Why?
Why is it that people are so insistent on clinging to the past?
Why is it that when a woman is cheated on, she remains good friends with the cheater, despite every sign saying she should cut him out of her life?
Why is it that when the same woman is hanging out with the same friend that cheated on her in the past, she treats her current boyfriend like the cheating piece of shit?
Why is it that after she is done hanging out with the ex, she finds any and everything the current bf says to be either trying to start a fight or bashing the ex?
Because people are naive.
Because she is blind.
Because she is in love with the ex, not the bf.
Because she wants to break up with him.
These are just speculative answers, and by no means the truth, just my random thoughts.
Why is it that when a woman is cheated on, she remains good friends with the cheater, despite every sign saying she should cut him out of her life?
Why is it that when the same woman is hanging out with the same friend that cheated on her in the past, she treats her current boyfriend like the cheating piece of shit?
Why is it that after she is done hanging out with the ex, she finds any and everything the current bf says to be either trying to start a fight or bashing the ex?
Because people are naive.
Because she is blind.
Because she is in love with the ex, not the bf.
Because she wants to break up with him.
These are just speculative answers, and by no means the truth, just my random thoughts.
Monday, November 15, 2010
Bummed out
so, I'm really bummed out.
for those of you who knew, I've been working on a story for a while, but about a month ago, my computer was in an accident which rendered its power port and usb ports useless. as such, I have not been able to recover my files from it, meaning that all my work on my story is, as of the moment, lost to me.
now, here is the real bummer: I've finally got good inspiration for working on it again, but as my computer is dead, I cant.
*sigh* the only good thing is that I wont be forgetting this inspiration anytime soon
for those of you who knew, I've been working on a story for a while, but about a month ago, my computer was in an accident which rendered its power port and usb ports useless. as such, I have not been able to recover my files from it, meaning that all my work on my story is, as of the moment, lost to me.
now, here is the real bummer: I've finally got good inspiration for working on it again, but as my computer is dead, I cant.
*sigh* the only good thing is that I wont be forgetting this inspiration anytime soon
Sunday, November 14, 2010
Sign Observations, Truckers, Rules of the road, Managers who suck, the elusive mud shit, and speedy checkouts.
So, yesterday was an interesting day.
it started off fairly normal, except for the fact I woke up about 10 and had to be at work at 2:30, but it was whatev, I spent my morning reading http://hyperboleandahalf.blogspot.com posts. I realized that I needed to get ready to go around 130 or so, and promptly started getting ready.
on my way to work I realized how little people (not as in short people) know about driving. I was cut off by about 20 different motorists in the 5 miles from my apartment to work. and none of them were obeying the simple common rule of the road where you turn on your turn signal to merge.
Just wait, it gets better.
when I got to the area where my work is, a trucker decides that, even though there are cars coming at him from both directions, he can just cut everyone off, simply because he is the biggest thing on the road. thats one thing I hate about truckers, they are all high and mighty and think they rule the road simply because they are so big and powerful. Well, lets see who's laughing when a big gust of wind blows you off the road, jerk.
once I was past the jerk of a trucker, I was going to park, and lo and behold, someone was driving the wrong way down the parking lot. you know how the parking spaces are slanted in a specific direction, and that is the direction you are supposed to go? yeah, this person was going the opposite direction, and then proceeded to honk at ME like I was going the wrong way. and then they couldn't figure out why they couldn't get into their parking spot the first try. I just wish I could tell some people that they need to go back to drivers ed, but this person would probably fail it.
after I got parked, I got out of my car (which is really more of a tank, but I'll talk more about that in a later post) and started walking to the front door. along the way, we have a loading zone, where customers can come to load their vehicles with whatever they purchased. well, I saw a person pull up, park, get out of their car, and go inside to proceed to do their shopping. it was at this point that I wanted to just call a tow truck to haul their vehicle away, but thats not my department, I'm just a janitor.
when I got clocked in, I went to check my schedule, because new ones get posted on Saturdays. I looked at it and saw that my manager (who is a worthless piece anyway, and sued the company thrice to get her position) had changed my schedule without my approval, or even letting me know she was doing it, which is a breach of company policy. I talked to a couple other managers about it and they basically told me I had to deal with it and just do it. Hence why I think all my managers are crap.
Interesting segwey with that last sentence, about the time I was going to take my lunch, I got called to clean up a biohazard spill, which is normally blood or vomit. this time though, it was what appeared to be shit, according to what the people who found it (and were too lazy to clean it up themselves) said. I took one look at it and said that it was mud, since it had little rocks in it and everything. I was told to clean it up like I would if it were shit though, since we weren't 100% sure (I was, but they weren't convinced)so I processed it and then was told to throw it into the trash compactor, which is against policy, but at this point, I didn't care any more. further reason I knew it was mud, not shit, is because when I was cleaning it up, there was no odor, and it was ice cold. It was mud off someones shoe.
the rest of the night passed fairly uneventfully, but when I went to Wal Mart after work to get some Ice cream, I went to a speedy check out, which is normally reserved for 20 items or fewer. well, the lady in front of me had at least 50 items, as it cost her almost $200. 20 items or fewer my ass.
it started off fairly normal, except for the fact I woke up about 10 and had to be at work at 2:30, but it was whatev, I spent my morning reading http://hyperboleandahalf.blogspot.com posts. I realized that I needed to get ready to go around 130 or so, and promptly started getting ready.
on my way to work I realized how little people (not as in short people) know about driving. I was cut off by about 20 different motorists in the 5 miles from my apartment to work. and none of them were obeying the simple common rule of the road where you turn on your turn signal to merge.
Just wait, it gets better.
when I got to the area where my work is, a trucker decides that, even though there are cars coming at him from both directions, he can just cut everyone off, simply because he is the biggest thing on the road. thats one thing I hate about truckers, they are all high and mighty and think they rule the road simply because they are so big and powerful. Well, lets see who's laughing when a big gust of wind blows you off the road, jerk.
once I was past the jerk of a trucker, I was going to park, and lo and behold, someone was driving the wrong way down the parking lot. you know how the parking spaces are slanted in a specific direction, and that is the direction you are supposed to go? yeah, this person was going the opposite direction, and then proceeded to honk at ME like I was going the wrong way. and then they couldn't figure out why they couldn't get into their parking spot the first try. I just wish I could tell some people that they need to go back to drivers ed, but this person would probably fail it.
after I got parked, I got out of my car (which is really more of a tank, but I'll talk more about that in a later post) and started walking to the front door. along the way, we have a loading zone, where customers can come to load their vehicles with whatever they purchased. well, I saw a person pull up, park, get out of their car, and go inside to proceed to do their shopping. it was at this point that I wanted to just call a tow truck to haul their vehicle away, but thats not my department, I'm just a janitor.
when I got clocked in, I went to check my schedule, because new ones get posted on Saturdays. I looked at it and saw that my manager (who is a worthless piece anyway, and sued the company thrice to get her position) had changed my schedule without my approval, or even letting me know she was doing it, which is a breach of company policy. I talked to a couple other managers about it and they basically told me I had to deal with it and just do it. Hence why I think all my managers are crap.
Interesting segwey with that last sentence, about the time I was going to take my lunch, I got called to clean up a biohazard spill, which is normally blood or vomit. this time though, it was what appeared to be shit, according to what the people who found it (and were too lazy to clean it up themselves) said. I took one look at it and said that it was mud, since it had little rocks in it and everything. I was told to clean it up like I would if it were shit though, since we weren't 100% sure (I was, but they weren't convinced)so I processed it and then was told to throw it into the trash compactor, which is against policy, but at this point, I didn't care any more. further reason I knew it was mud, not shit, is because when I was cleaning it up, there was no odor, and it was ice cold. It was mud off someones shoe.
the rest of the night passed fairly uneventfully, but when I went to Wal Mart after work to get some Ice cream, I went to a speedy check out, which is normally reserved for 20 items or fewer. well, the lady in front of me had at least 50 items, as it cost her almost $200. 20 items or fewer my ass.
Saturday, November 13, 2010
MSP
ok, so reading one of my new blogger finds, I came across a term. It is a most wondrous term. It references a party, where everyone goes to have a good time. It is called a Mandatory Sex Party. Really, the whole reason I'm writing this is because the blogger asked her readers to, in order to raise awareness of said parties. Here is a link to the post
read and enjoy my minions!
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